Life / Mental Health Update

The whole kind of disappeared for a bit and it has been a hot minute since I've posted anything on social media so we are long overdue a catch up. I want to start by saying a massive thank you to anybody who has shown support for me whilst I've not been posting. I have seen every single message, every single comment, I just wasn't replying to it because for my own mental wellbeing I really needed to take a step back from socials for a bit. I think I might be at a stage in my grieving, healing, mental health journey, whatever you want to call it, where everything comes and goes in waves but for two, three months the waves for me were typically smaller and easier to ride but then after those few months everything will come crashing down and I have to start rebuilding myself again. That is exactly what happened last time I was posting. I've always intended for this year to be the year that I seek some support for my mental health and for the grief and the trauma that I've experienced. I've been on the waitlist for support for a long, long time and I think I reached the point where I know that I need it now. I've been able to connect with a private therapist, I've had an initial consultation and I've got a date for the end of July where we are going to start working together. Alongside that, I visited my GP to get some antidepressant medication prescribed. I can talk more about the pros and the cons and the full process behind that if people are interested. But the main thing to know is that I didn't have the best response when I started taking it and so we've had to play around with the dose a little bit to get me started on the correct one. I've gone through this stage of feeling really low and then coming off the back of that and now I'm at the stage where I've started even out a little bit whilst I was trying to get myself to a slightly more stable point. I will say that I really enjoyed posting less and I've decided that it's something that I want to continue doing because I was able to be so much more present in my everyday life. I have also had a birthday since I last spoke to you guys, which was on the 15th of June. I've got things that I filmed for and I will put out a little bit of a belated birthday content. It was so nice to capture whilst I was there and not feel rushed to edit things, put things together, schedule things, but also process things. That's why I'm rambling for far too long and I'm hoping that I've covered everything but please leave any questions that you've got in the comments and I will try my best to reply to them all. Thank you for bearing with me and continuing to bear with me and let's see what the last half of this year brings, hopefully.