one of the weirdest things about parent loss & grief

one of the weirdest things about parent loss & grief he passed away over a year ago sometimes it feels like it happened so long ago and then other times it feels like it happened yesterday but something that I honestly think is unfair and I think about this probably more than I should before my dad died he was one of the most important people in my life you know he was just took up all this space like in a good way like in my heart and in my mind and you know just like my thoughts. He was the strongest person the smartest person he could fix anything somehow I don't know how he did that and like on top of that he was also his own person he had his own thoughts and feelings and memories and likes and dislikes like he was his whole person after he died now he's just memories and stories I guess that's just how things are but like it's so hard to wrap your brain around that he's just a bunch of a bunch of words he's a bunch of stories that you can tell does that make sense I don't know if that makes sense one of the many things that's hard to wrap your brain around when it comes to parent loss and grief and it sucks