That was my biggest problem being neurodivergent.

That was my biggest problem being neurodivergent. As a kid you be thinking everybody just wanna be cool with you, everybody just kind. You be thinking everybody got good intentions. You just automatically think that to people prove you wrong and traumatize you time and time a fucking again. Can't tell you how many times I got fucked over by people because I thought they were my friend. I thought they was being kind to me. Whole time they was just being kind and it was just displaying nice behaviour and they were trying to be deceptive towards me. I can't tell you how many times I've been through that bullshit. Cause since I was a young and I always just used to think the best of people. Now being older, all the different stuff I've been through, all the different things I've Learned about psychology and human nature. All this different stuff I started learning because I kept getting traumatized by so many people over and over and over and over again. I started to understand being neurodivergent. You naturally just wanna be kind to people. You naturally are just empathetic to people and animals and to nature. But everybody is not like that. It's so many people that just use kindness or niceness as a thin veneer just to get in good with people, just to fit in to society. And it's like bro, when you see this shit, you see people In a totally different light. It don't change nothing about your kindness or your empathy, but it makes you maneuver differently with people.