Post by @hennessybluechapman

I’m making these videos to hold myself accountable for moments when I lose control. It’s crazy how my own mind still even as I’m making this video is trying to justify this to myself. Then trying to justify it to whoever is going to watch this video as an addict cross addiction is very very probable , I have a diagnosis of poly substance dependence disorder. But my addict behaviours are present in other ways. I’ve struggled with gambling, and compulsive spending on and off ever since I can remember. . I set myself a goal to not buy anything that wasn’t essential. Things like clothes for the kids etc obviously don’t come into this. Both kids recently had birthdays and have so many new toys , even Precious has toys that haven’t even been taken out of the boxes. I need to get rid of toys not buy more. But for myself, I have everything I need and then some!!! And in hindsight I feel the same guilt and shame that I’ve lost control again #addiction #xyzbcafypシ #fyp #foru