That's How They Turned A Boy Into A Criminal

When I was 5 years old I started to get molested by my uncle and over the course of the next 6 years of my life I was molested by more than 5 men. So when I was 7 I broke into a church and I got charged with a felony and put on probation. And when I got put on probation all the men that were molesting me went away. And so when I got off probation uh they all came back and so I went and broke the law again and got put on probation again. So my whole life I continued to go out and break the law. I would purposely go out and catch felonies because this is how I protected myself. My mother didn't care, uh I didn't have any other family members and so to protect myself from the abuse that's what I would do. And I I told on my uncle and his threats came true because he would tell me as a little kid when he was molesting me if you tell anybody uh I'll have to hurt the whole family. And while he didn't hurt the family like he thought when I told on him he went to prison and my whole family fell apart. We no longer went to grandma's house, there was no more aunts, no more uncles, no more cousins. Uh everybody blamed me, it was my fault and it turned into this reclusive kid and it made me a target in school because I had no self-confidence. I was I was horribly bullied going through school and by the time I was 15 I had 10-12 felonies on my record and so the the judge was sick of me and bound me over to adult court and uh when when I went in at 16 he sent me to prison. And I had never been taken away before, I had never been locked up so I didn't I didn't know what was coming and I was just this abused kid from the the country and they put me in prison when I was 16 and I was raped the first week I was there by two men at knifepoint and it turned me into a savage and I became this very violent human being because that became my source of protection and I no longer feared physical pain, I no longer feared felonies. I resolved that I was going to spend the rest of my life in prison and when I was 21 they opened the doors and sent me back to the world with $75 and three condoms and no parole, no probation and I didn't know how to protect myself anymore from the monster that I had become and so I started to rob people and I started to hurt people and for 20 months I was just a horrible stain in the world and I was ultimately convicted of of 15 more felonies and sent back to prison for 12 more years. Um and it became a a safety net for me to to get into trouble, to catch felonies. It I felt like that's what my life was worth and ultimately spent 18 years. Yeah, that was my secret.