a year ago

a year ago my mom got He lost his mom and sister of covid ❤️ year ago my mom got sick and she went to the hospital about my sister my baby sister got sick what they get sick with Covid Covid and my mom was in the hospital 42 days my sister 35 and first oh jeez and it'll be a year coming up this week and then my sister had special needs so the she was a respirator and that they hook all the machines that they hook her up to and basically the doctor wouldn't pull her off that wasn't doing anything heartbeat until we told our mom and asked her to take her permission even though my mom was incapacitated and so we told her because it was the right thing to do and six days later my mom passed yeah and and I and I know it was related to finding out that child not no doubt in my mind and so coming up on a year and I just I don't grieved it at yeah I've I've been sad I've cried more times than I could possibly count I've lost hours of sleep every night it's created all health problems which is telling me I'm not doing something right and it's not it's not it's not Andrew I I think you have you have you are grieving it this is what grief is