POV: I swear I had a plan

I don't like games and tug-of-war. When we were talking, she just kept saying gibberish. I don't think I can accept it either. I'm a bit shocked. He could just completely ignore what I said. I think just relying on some liking, while there are issues, the communication issues. Won't make a relationship to go further. So I said I'm anxious and I have withdrawal and hesitation. Isn't that normal? I was just being blunt and honest. What's wrong with that? I've always had this attitude. If you hesitate, forget it. No hesitation. I'm straightforward. In relationships, I don't like games and tug-of-war. I think it's really too horrible. I really feel I can't accept it. That I'm sending signals to everyone. This kind of behavior actually makes everyone uncomfortable. On the first day, or the second or third day, for the first five days, you can interact with everyone. I think that's fine. Because you don't know them yet. You need to know everyone before making a choice. But now it's already day ten, and you're still hesitating. (不夠喜歡啊) (Just not into them enough) I absolutely can't accept the act of playing both sides. I've made it very clear today. And I planned to exit. I wanted to quickly confirm my feelings. (Communicating with the director team) I thought I had feelings for Youling, and being with him would make me happy. It felt like love grows over time, slowly and gradually. But these past two days, I found it so hard to communicate with him. Whether I said it directly to him or subtly, it seemed I got no response. His way of communicating was different from what I expected. His reaction put a lot of pressure on me, and then I started to waver. (Wavering) As for Lizheng, there are some points in his personality that I do admire, and I want to get to know him. I don't think it's at the level of liking. That's why I'm so conflicted. I don't understand why it's only me who's like this. 我不明白 为什么只有我这样. I actually think that this time, we can clearly sense that Liu is actually very immature in relationships. She's always immersed in her feelings and she completely ignores facts. She has never realized that her indecisiveness and feelings can also make others feel hurt. She didn't want to hurt anyone, but in the end, she hurt everyone. Including herself. Right.