Why is finding a good pillow so hard???

Why am I so sorry guys, I had no idea you'll be waiting with such big breaths for this pillow update. I didn't like the coop pillow. I filled it, I unfilled it, I took some out, I put some in. I could not get it to a point where I liked it. I woke up every day and my neck hurt. It didn't feel like it was supporting my head, so my neck couldn't relax if that makes sense. I had the coop original. There's variations of the coop, maybe there's different ones that was for me, maybe I should have got the side sleeper one with the hole in the middle. Regardless, it went back. The goose feather ones, they never stood a chance. I hated them. They were hard and crunchy and they weren't good. The only two that I have left because I needed something to sleep on are the Beckham Hotel Collection. These are the same pillow but this one's noticeably flatter because this is the one that I've actually been sleeping on. This one's been like for decoration. Now that it's gotten flatter, I like it better. When I first pulled it out of the box, it was a little too high for me. I've grown into liking this one. It's the best pillow I've ever had. The best sleep I've ever had, no. I still feel like I'm looking for my perfect pillow. I might have to just suck it up and get the purple pillow because you guys say that's the best one. But also I slept at my best friend's house and she has these Serta down illusion soft hypoallergenic medium firm bed pillows. They're like kind of flat, but when I stack two of them, it kind of works. So I might try those too. So that's the update. Sorry. I still haven't found the best pillow ever. I'm gonna keep trying. Good luck.