Day 16 of Trying to Retire My Wife DO YOU TRUST GOD TO BE WHO HE SAYS HE IS?

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The creator's vulnerability and relatable struggle with faith and action, particularly in the context of financial goals, likely resonated with viewers who experience similar internal conflicts. The use of scripture to frame the dilemma adds a layer of depth and encourages introspection.

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The creator reflects on the struggle of balancing faith and action, specifically in the context of their goal to retire their wife. They question whether they are truly trusting God or merely trying to control outcomes, and ponder the difficulty of surrendering to divine will when personal effort feels paramount.

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1Struggle with vulnerability and daily showing up
2Fear of repeating past patterns of failure
3Pressure to perform and appear a certain way
4The conflict between grinding and trusting God
5The biblical concept of joy in fearing and following God
6The choice to trust God regardless of financial circumstances

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Day 16 of Trying to Retire My Wife DO YOU TRUST GOD TO BE WHO HE SAYS HE IS?

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Day 16. Do you actually trust God, or do you just trust him when you already know how it's gonna end? Because for me ✋🏼😭 guilty.. Because there's a version of faith that looks like faith but it's really just control with a prayer attached to it. Proverbs 3:5 says "Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding." Not most of your heart. Not the parts you're okay with releasing. All of it. And I think we avoid that verse for a reason. Because leaning on your own understanding at least feels safe. You can see the steps. You can manage the outcome. You know what's coming. But faith doesn't work like that. The moment you lock down every detail, you've already told God you don't need him. You just need him to co-sign what you already planned. That's not trust. That's a backup plan with God's name on it and just hoping He co-signs it. Isaiah 55:8 says his thoughts aren't our thoughts and his ways aren't our ways. Which means the outcome you're so afraid to let go of might not even be the one worth holding onto. Let it go. Not because it's easy. Because He's actually who He says He is.

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Do you trust God to be who he says he is? I think the most part about this entire series is trying to figure out how to tell be vulnerable and show up daily, because I don't wanna just start something and then continue the pattern of I've done before. I've seen that many different times in my bloodline and just, all the things to build over that there's almost this overbearing pressure to make it again, is healthy to an extent, but at the same time, I feel like I'm putting too much pressure on myself to make it look or feel a certain way. And then comes a side of the time that it takes to actually put these ideas together and, and tell my story, like, have the time to actually now implement and make the money and try to retire my wife. It's such a weird place to be in because I know I have to do something about it so that we don't remain in the same place, but there's a risk on the other side of grinding and hustling because you're losing out on what's most important. I understand of God giving us rest, but I found myself in places where I felt like I'm not deserving of rest, or I can't afford to rest because I have to do, see what I'm believing. But that goes entirely against what the Lord is telling me, because it literally says here, "It's useless so hard." There's so much beauty, but why is there in my heart with the idea that me putting my tools down and walking away from the work means that I have to trust in God, on him? A hard concept to follow when I know who God, I know what he's, I know what he's done in my life. The fruit of obedience, but yet I feel like I still have to do in order to see what I'm praying for. I think that's disobedience. Rebellion. The following verse says, "How joyful are those who fear the Lord and all his ways." Joy under who fear the Lord and all who follow his ways. If I choose to on my own actions, I'm being completely to what he called me to do. I'm seeking for a moment of happiness, me making a sale, fill something in my spirit where I finally did, but that's temporary. It comes and goes. There's actual true joy on the side of releasing and surrendering to the Lord and I don't know what's next. I'm gonna pay, I don't know where me, I choose to trust you because I believe you are who you said you are. Or not I have zero dollars in my bank account or I have 100,000, there's no weight on either end of it because he's the one that sustains.