NIGHTMARE ADOPTION when I was 8?!

I was adopted when I was 11 months old from Jengchi, China. And my sister was adopted when she was 3 and a half years old from Shanghai. So we are not biologically related. We are not adopted from the same province. It was a special case because my sister was technically special needs and they adopted her. So I was 7 and a half years old and my parents had been trying to adopt another kid for many years. For some reason, at this time, the adoption system was super backed up and we were just getting rejection after rejection after rejection, or we were just getting ghosted. My mom had told me, hey, we're trying to get you a sister. And I didn't fully know what this meant. I was just like, alright, I don't know. And I was just used to being an only child and I couldn't really fully process what it meant to have a sibling. So finally, my mom got the call about my sister and she's like, oh my gosh, you're getting a little sister. And obviously, I can see that my mom's excited. So I'm excited too. But I also had no idea what this entailed. It just felt like my parents and I were going on another family trip, except this time we're going to China. So I was just super happy to be there. We had met my sister and it was this huge emotional thing for my parents, but at this point, I just wasn't old enough to fully process what was going on. To me, it kind of just felt like I had met a new friend on vacation and she was staying with us. But the moment where everything went downhill is when we got on the plane to go back home. I was actually so confused as to why she was getting on the plane to go home with us. I don't know why. My mom had explained this to me. Like this is not a fault on my parents' side. I just didn't process it. So my sister's getting on the plane to go home with us. And I was like, wait a minute. Y'all get attention. What is going on here? So that's when I think everything fully clicked for me. I was like, wait, I'm actually not chill with this. About the unique thing about her adoption is that although there was only a four-year age gap between us, it felt so much larger because I was so much older. So I had never seen her in the baby forms and like fully experienced, natural and evolving growth of a human was planted there and I was confused. My sister and I got COVID, older, the less age gap seems to definitely matter. And it was very apparent and felt when we were younger. But when COVID hit, we were just forced to be in the same space for an extended period of time. And I was like, wait, chill. You're totally. I wouldn't totally hate hanging out with you. Now I'll be 24 this year. So it feels so gross to me to even say that. My sister's gonna be 20. That's so weird. I don't know where the time went. She's like one of my favorite people and she's genuinely the best sister I could ever ask for. So I got extremely lucky in that department. If you guys are interested in learning more about my adoption journey, I have a full podcast on it, which is on my podcasting YouTube channel at Bee Here Today. Thank you so much for hanging out with me. And I'll be sure to see you very soon. Bye.