The dirty car theory. What have you stopped noticing?

Aug 1 The dirty car theory. What have you stopped noticing? How you maintain the small things tells the truth about how you see yourself. Your car is not just a car. It's evidence. Every receipt on the floor, every coffee. Coffee cup in the holder from three weeks ago. Every layer of dust on the dashboard. You stopped seeing because you looked at it so many times it became invisible. All of it. Evidence of something. Not that you're lazy, not that you're busy. Evidence of what you've decided, quietly and without ceremony, that you deserve. The dirty car isn't the problem. The story underneath the dirty car is. I told myself it would take hours. My car wasn't even that dirty. A little dust, some receipts, a few things that have migrated from my bag to the seat and just stayed there. Because I kept telling myself, I deal with it later, when I had more time. Weeks went by. Every time I got in the car, I felt it. Not dramatically, just a little hum of something that wasn't quite right. A small tax on my nervous system. I'd gotten used to paying. I'd stop noticing the withdrawal. One day, I grabbed a trash bag. Twelve minutes later, my car was clean. Twelve minutes.