GROSS THINGS I DID WHEN I WAS AN ALCOHOLIC 🤢 (part 2)

Gross things I did when I was an alcoholic (part 2). I'm going to give a massive trigger warning for this one because this one is really gross, like a lot of other alcoholics, I preferred to drink on an empty stomach so that the alcohol would hit me as fast as it would. I would literally go as far as making myself throw up to empty my stomach if it wasn't. But I also made myself throw up a lot while I was drinking too if I felt a little bit, but I wanted like if I was at somebody's party, I would literally go outside and back of the house and then just puke in the bushes and then just keep drinking like nothing happened. And I would do this multiple, multiple times a night. I also would do this before sleep to try to avoid a hangover, which worked for me for a long time, but as my alcoholism progressed, the hangover remedies just did not work on me anymore, but I still would try my throat hated to see my fingers coming. And it's crazy because at the time I literally saw nothing wrong with this. If anything, I thought I was smart. I thought I cracked the code on how to drink an entire bottle of Fireball. Something really gross and really disgusting that I used the time when I was an alcoholic. I hate throwing up. I literally avoid it like the plague. So the fact that I used to willingly do that all the time is crazy.