some of the things severe eczema has taken away from me 💔

some of the things severe eczema has taken away from me 💔 my wedding. 💍❤️ this one hurts. all wedding planning is now on hold for the forseeable. i just remember how happy i was on our engagement day and the fact i was getting married. i just want to move forward with our life. time. ⏰ now going into month 8 of the most debilitating year of my life. time i wont get back and have lost to practically being house bound and going between endless medical appointments. i feel like i have nothing to show for this year. myself. i don't know the girl in this photo anymore and probably never will again. even when i eventually come out of this period of my life i think i'm forever a changed person from this experience. my peace and happiness. 🕊️ the impact of eczema on mental health is not spoken about enough. this has been such a hard year emotionally and i have had some very low times. my family members said my eyes had gone grey and looking back at photos i can see it. my hair. 🐒 not sure if it was the prednisolone, stress or widespread inflammation in my body that caused my hair to shed. maybe all of the above. but it's so much thinner now. luckily this one should get better eventually. sleep. 😴 i haven't had a good nights sleep all year. literally sleep walking through life. at my worst i didn't sleep a single wink for an entire week. it was so bad even strong sleeping tablets didn't work. i wake up multiple times a night and struggle to get back to sleep. the chronic insomnia is debilitating and lack of sleep means your skin isn't repairing so it continues the cycle. hobbies. 🧗‍♀️⛰️🏂 during the worst flares i've really struggled to keep doing physical activity and the things i love. hobbies and interests are a part of what makes us who we are. so you feel like you're just losing your spark and yourself.