trauma dump...

I'll never forget being in Grade 4. My dad had bought us shoes and my aunts looked at me and said "How can you walk around in new shoes when your mom hasn't even paid us interest this month?" I was so'd by two of my uncl and we finally went no contact with them a few years ago and it has changed my life for lik the better I still have to run into them someti at like events but that's whatever but all of my aunts knew about it and they did nothing about it all they did was they told me that I was gonna be a wh that I was gonna be on the stre pregnant and um they called me ugly they called me dark they call me fat um what else? Oh yeah, they tortured me as a child like they would like pull out my hair and like talk shit to me and say like my mom never raised us right or blah blah blah blah blah So grateful for my mom's side of the family my grandma my grandma sister my mom's sister who would all pitch in and send money to my mom every month to help us They charged my mom 2.5% interest which is 30% interest per year for 20+ years and I had to give the original amount back or like we're broke because because they're loan sharks and they let my mom a lot of money and and my mom's entire paycheck would go there like literally and we would couldn't even afford pads because we were that brok and we'd wear soc as under like pads because we didn't have pads but they will tell yo but they will tell you that they did everything for because I they did they did do a lot of good but they did a lot of harm for us and the harm starts with Being sexually assaulted as a and you gonna let me be sexually assaulted know that I was sexually assa do nothing about it and know that someone else was sexually assa and I and still leave me in a room with a man that yo sexually assault and that could do that to me as well So if you're wat you know so you cannot justify that you di that you did not know and you're ke oh yeah an um, my mom like really asked me and begged me to inv so I did just that and wen invite they came to my wedding late after I got married and then told my friend, oh, cause there was a good situation and th oh, are you a whore or like a Only whore talk like this at my wedd Yo You are a pimp bitch. You are a Do you know what a Because you Because you pimped me out to your and you asked my and you asked my friend if she's a so you sho so you should zip but I but I need to be a little bit nicer, ri So on top of all this, Disclaimer: all my cousins are guys and I don't think knew this happened to me. So on top of all this, I told myself that if any of them have a daughter I will go and tell their spouses what I already told th I already told the aunts this and I said that in the futur you gonna have all these gir because you guys ar because you guys are all boys. So when those girls come in and they have daughter I will make sure to go not for revenge, but I don't want this ever happening to someone el because I know how trag So I did just that. But I can see why this spouse belongs in that family because when I went and told this sp hey, th hey, this happened to me and I really hope you are aware of the si don't just so you're aware, like I your daughter is literally as a neighbour to these people tha And she's like, I've known them for years and I wouldn't see them doin And it's so sur and it's so surprising that you're saying this, but I