Vacation is BED hell

Vacation is BED hell. I swear nobody talks about how hard vacation can be when you have BED. Because before the trip even starts, my brain is already saying, well, I'm on vacation, so fuck it, calories don't matter. Then it becomes breakfast out, snacks by the pool, drinks, dinner, dessert. And suddenly, I'm not even eating because I want something anymore. I'm eating because I feel like I have to take advantage of every single food while I'm here. And the worst part is watching everyone else be able to enjoy their vacation. They get the dessert they want, and then they're able to move on. Meanwhile, I'm thinking about the breakfast buffet tomorrow while I'm still eating dinner tonight. My recovery app, "Unbinge" has helped me get way better at catching that mindset, but vacation can still make it so easy to fall into because if I binge, I wake up the next morning feeling sick and immediately start thinking, I need to be good today, which just makes me want to binge again later. I used to come home from vacation feeling like I needed a vacation from the way I ate on vacation. Because BED can turn something that's supposed to be a fun time into five straight days of just thinking about food. The recovery app "Unbinge" has helped me get way better at catching that mindset, but vacation can still make it so easy to fall into because if I binge, I wake up the next morning feeling sick and immediately start thinking, I need to be good today, which just makes me want to binge again later. I used to come home from vacation feeling like I needed a vacation from the way I ate on vacation. Because BED can turn something that's supposed to be a fun time into five straight days of just thinking about food.