One thing that I was told by my siblings, especially my sister, is that sometimes I worry about how they'd live without me.

One thing that I was told by my siblings, especially my sister, is that sometimes I worry about how they'd live without me. Learn how to live without me. I'm very close with my siblings, especially my sister. I would always help out my siblings, especially when it came to phone calls, like making doctor's appointments, driving them around, helping them out when I was available. Now that I have this awful condition, like it's slowly taking over my body, and one day I'm just not gonna be here. Especially my sister, I always tell her, learn how to communicate, learn how to talk, that makes any sense. She's very shy. And when it comes to phone calls, I would always take over. I would say this year, a couple months ago, she wanted to make phone calls and she said, what do I say? I was gonna help her. But then that's when I stopped myself and I told myself, this is where you're gonna have to be on your own. And this is what I told her. I'm not longer here. Now what? Who's gonna help you? Or brother, he's working. But by the time he gets out, it's too late to call. So now it's up to you. What are you gonna say? I don't know. You better know now. And she did on her own. And that hurt. And for my brother, he's on his own. It's not that I don't want to help him. It's just I feel like he depends on me a lot. Especially during the winter when I had to give him rides. I did not like that. Even though we have family here, who's gonna help him? When he needs rides, I will say no because it sucks to say this, but I will say, well, now I'm dead. I can't drive my car too. You, who are you gonna call? You have to have a plan. Plan A, plan B, plan C. Honestly, you gotta have a plan. And once I'm no longer here, don't cry. Your tears are gonna bring me back. Go, go do something that will make you happy. Go to laughing craft. Go get a seafood boil. Go to meet you. You're gonna be sad all the time. That's not good too. Even though I'm still here, don't depend on me so much. Do yourself. If you're scared, it's not like I'm gonna come back, you know? Live life, live life how I'm living life.