I'm like, it's a pinch me right now. This is a dream.

I'm like, it's a pinch me right now. This is a dream. How did I get myself into? How did I get myself into? I thought these were my friends. I'm just going to press record because I don't have no one to talk to and why am I in TJ in an Airbnb that I got with my friends all alone. Like why am I left behind in the middle of fucking nowhere? Like who does that? Who does that? Who does that? I just feel very alone. Like this whole trip I just feel so alone and I just feel like I have no one but God. I just called my grandma just for a little comfort. I didn't tell her the situation just because I'm in the middle of nowhere and I don't want one word about me. I just feel like I don't have anyone. That's the day to be about her and I feel like I'm just left out the whole entire time. The whole entire time. I'm really stressed and I feel alone and this is why I never get too comfortable. Look at me talking to a camera. I just talked to God, so now I'm going to talk to myself because that's all I have at the end of the day is just myself. So yeah, I'm left in this Airbnb and my service is not good. They left me. Stranded, basically in the middle of nowhere. Not stranded because I have my car, but I don't even have service. So I think I'm going to just go on maps and I'm going to just, now that I have Wi-Fi, obviously put in the maps, screen record it to what I need to do, but I'm just praying that God guides me where I need to be. I don't even know if I should even go. I don't want to do nothing. This is such an ugly feeling. Like I don't, I don't know what to do. I don't even want to end this video because when I turn it off, I don't have anyone and Thank you God for another day. Thank you for pushing me, God. Thank you for guiding me. Lesson learned. I'm not traveling with no one ever again. I'm never doing this again, ever. This is so bad. Like their family was literally just complaining how we're, I guess in a dangerous spot, but decided to leave me alone in the Airbnb. I don't even know what to ever done. This is someone like this is so bad. And I love, I, I don't know. You guys, I just get attached to people. I don't allow myself to have friends. You know, people are good to me because even the good ones will leave you stranded. They'll leave you stranded. Beautiful people, but this is crazy. The situation is crazy. This is crazy. I don't wish this on anyone. Like they're not telling me what they're doing. Tell me why they go all their stuff, acted, put it in their mom's car and I don't know what they were saying. I don't know what they were saying. They would not tell me what they were doing. Like just they were getting me a straightforward answer of what they were doing. Like why can't I go? I hate this for myself and yeah. I feel so terrible. Well, I'm trying to pull it together. I'm trying to pull it together. This is so bad. I'm so scared.