can I just say

can I just say think forgot live I just spent the past two years of my life in my little college bubble frantically chasing for my next resume builder physics + math major @ Amherst College my next A my next prestigious skill set without fully soaking in the present and I was so lost in my next step in my career I doubted my passions my major my choices countless times and I stepped into my summer feeling burnt out from academics I moved into an apartment all alone in the busiest city of the world surrounded in uncertainty and then I realized WHAT WAS THERE TO WORRY ABOUT? I started reconnecting with my childhood passions I got kicked out of restaurants for talking for so long with my best friends I ran into countless supportive followers randomly in the streets they felt so inspired by my silly little videos my server at a sushi restaurant told me he always wanted to get blue hair but was so scared to unleash this version of self expression so I encouraged him to you only live once I held hands with my friends at the park and cried for hours and then danced all night to a random busking performance I fell in love I took the wrong subway after having my feet torn from wearing heels on a night out complimented this girl's shoes and then we talked the entire subway ride and then made dinner plans and then I felt guilty AM ALLOWED TO HAVE THIS sharing love exploring and taking a step back? I kept feeling like I didn't deserve to be this happy I've never been not busy I can't do this because I didn't get a prestigious internship this summer I turned down an Ivy League engineering program my family left to another country and I barely spent time with them but what is there to life if I can't appreciate the little things in the end what do we even live our lives for? and...who am I even trying to impress? I'm allowed to slow down build new connections and pivot as many times as I want because somewhere along the way I confused building a life with building a resume and maybe I didn't forget to work hard I just needed to remember how to live - yours truly, grace