we broke up ❤️‍🩹

I am single after a three year relationship and calling it a breakup honestly doesn't feel right because there's no bad blood, there's no ill will, there's only love and support there. And I honestly never really imagined a situation I'd be in where two people can have so much love and respect for each other but actually decided the best thing is for themselves to focus on themselves. It's honestly really weird, it's sad and I'm pissed. To, I don't know how else to say that. I just am. But at the same time, I'm definitely someone who believes in love and believes in everything happening for a reason. So I know one day I will look back with deep understanding. Without that in mind, this is the perfect time where I have just been focusing on myself because that's all I can do. It keeps me from going crazy. And I know that this time is going to suck regardless. So I'd rather just layer on all of these uncomfortable, really sucky things. So by the time I'm healed or on the other side, I'm also this evolved version of myself. So that's why I'm all of a sudden so motivated to do my law school exams. That's why my parents renovated the cabin at lightning speed. That's why I signed up for a fitness competition. I will say at the same time throughout the three years, I definitely struggled with the spark with myself. Not because of him at all. I just feel like it was life for me. I was feeling uncertain in law school, started posting on social media. I've moved every two seconds. I've just constantly been going at a hundred miles an hour. And I think now is the perfect time to slow down, be present with myself and really touch base with who I currently am and who I want to grow into next. I've also been struggling with the spark with myself. Not because of him at all. I just feel like it was life for me. I was feeling uncertain in law school, started posting on social media. I've moved every two seconds. I've just constantly been going at a hundred miles an hour. And I think now is the perfect time to slow down, be present with myself and really touch base with who I currently am and who I want to grow into next.