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I said a really risky that for a guy that I've had a crush on for a long time and I've gotten a response and I'm really trying hard not to crash out about it. I've been single my entire life, no male interaction, like, really never at all. Like I've never had, you know, pursue me and it's really messed with my head. Which is a personal problem, but one thing about me is I do develop like delusional levels of crushes and which that is on me, like I know I need to like chill the f out. But it's like I can't you know, I can't help it. You try being 26 and have never had anything. It's very, very lonely and it's very hard to not see someone that you like and like fully go ahead crush. Not mad that I sent a message because you know, you never know what's gonna happen. But I'm trying really hard to like change the narrative in my head where it's like, oh, any guy that you've ever liked has never obviously liked you back. Like something is wrong with you. That makes me struggle with it more. I wish I could just find my person. People always say, oh, you'll find them when you least expect it. That it. What point always expecting this? How want bad the thing that I want so bad is like, you know, I did was go on a trip to Europe and I loved it. Don't get me wrong, it was amazing. While I was there, I couldn't help but think, I wish my person was here with me. Just constantly in the back of my brain, which then makes me feel pathetic. Like, there's no win here. It's so frustrating. I know I'm complaining. I get it. Because I do like get ahead of myself whenever I do have a crush. I make it harder on myself that I recognize that crashing out a little bit. At the end of the day, at least I know on my crush. If you know, everybody's tea, like that I'm not whining about that. I'm not whining about the fact that I'm alone because I'm gonna continue to be alone because anytime I like a guy, nothing comes of it. And you know what? I'm gonna go see my friend today and I'm gonna move on and I'm not gonna talk about this anymore. Probably chronically single. If you're anything like me, you're probably having a bad time.