Lets have a talk, after 12 years I ended my long-term relationship with my fiancé, and I’m now single at the age of 42 and starting over again.

I just broke off a six year engagement and an 11 year relationship and I'm starting my life all over again in my 40s. I'm terrified, but I'm so ready to live my life to the fullest. You guys have no idea. I've been saying that this is the summer of Sam and again. Nothing, nothing bad to say about my ex. I'm not gonna deep dive into why my relationship ended. I love him and I love letting go of someone you love. It's hard. But I'm learning to love myself more. This is the summer of self-discovery and love. And Sam in my 40s. I'm 42. I was with this man almost 12 years. Only one kiss, only one experience. So this is a scary, yet exciting new chapter of my life. But again, it's hard. Letting go of something that feels safe. Sometimes I just have to take a step back and like work on me off camera. It's been a month. I've been single for a month. There's gonna be a lot of firsts that I'm gonna share with you guys. My first kiss with someone different after 12 years is a crazy thought. Like I have not kissed anyone different in 12 years. I am only 42. So like, if you've been in a long-term relationship and it ended, tell me in the comments what it feels like all the firsts. When I tell you these apps are so crazy. When I was single, there was no Tinder, there was no Bumble, there was no Hinge. There was just good old stinky plenty of fish. So like, it's overwhelming. The options, the opportunities, the fake bullshit I'm gonna have to go through to potentially rediscover finding someone for me. Ending a relationship with someone you love is probably the hardest thing I think you'd have to do as an adult when it comes to your personal life. And living my life on camera is really vulnerable. So I appreciate the ones who respected me, giving me time to process this situation. It's been a month. It has not been easy. It has not been fun. I miss my routine with him. But I also love myself enough to know that sometimes you just have to separate yourself so you can become the best version of yourself and work on yourself. I'm not gonna cry. I had to put myself first. There's a lot of crazy things I'm thinking about. Am I gonna move? Am I gonna find someone? What is life gonna do? Like my life, the doors are open. The opportunities are there. What am I gonna do next? But either way, you're fucking life. I had to put myself first. There's a lot of crazy things I'm thinking about. Am I gonna move? Am I gonna find someone? What is life gonna do? Like my life, the doors are open. The opportunities are there. What am I gonna do next? But either way, you're fucking life.