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you know sometimes I think about cutting myself to in a way distract me from the pain distract me from the pain cause thinking about you hurts so bad and if something hurts worse then I shouldn't feel it is all I'm saying that's why when I clip my nails I intentionally go a little deep to the point where they begin to bleed cause it makes it a tad bit easier for me to fall asleep because every time I close my eyes all I see is you and I don't wanna continue to pursue something that's one sided when you don't even have a clue that I still like you my room is messy again and none of my clothes are even clean I wanna try talking to someone about it but I don't wanna feel like a burden or something so I hold it in I mean sometimes I grab the pen but I haven't even had the energy to get back into my writin cause it's got me reminiscin it's like everything that I do it just reminds me of you like there's just this repeated deja vu and I can't drop you I've even tried praying listening to music but it feels like God doesn't actually hear anything that I'm saying so I just keep it to myself instead of taking care of my mental health I let it depreciate my emotional wealth and it gets worse the longer I wait like it just keeps filling up my plate I wish that I could drop these feelings and start on a clean slate but then all of this would have been for what? what was the point of all my writing? what was the point of all my waiting? what was the point of even fighting? what was the point of giving it my all? like was it all for nothing? you made it seem like you liked me but I think that you were just bluffing. you know this is exactly why I think about cutting myself to distract me from the pain but honestly I wouldn't mind just sitting and reflecting about you in the puddles when it rains If you guys like that poem, there's plenty more just like it in my new book Loved and Lost which is available on Amazon or if you click the link in my bio.