life updates pt. 2

You wanna know the real reason why my house is so spotless and curated? Because I don't live in it. I live out of a plane and a hotel. I just got back from spending over 40 days in a hotel in New York City. I had to be there to speak at near tech week. I filmed a couple campaigns that were in person. I do not work this hard to miss out on all those opportunities. And I finally got back the other week. I'm ready to spend my summer in San Francisco, live in this house, finally enjoy it after being in here for barely a year. Finally get to wake up in this house, do my thing, then OpenAI calls. And they're doing a brand trip. By the way, OpenAI's office is 20 minutes from my house. But no, the transportation to pick us up is in New York City. So I literally just got back and your girl is going to be on a plane again next week. I was supposed to be in Hawaii with my best friend. I literally have not taken a vacation and God knows how long. I needed this to rest and recover. So now I need to cut that in half and I need to fly from Hawaii to New York straight, literally taken overnight flight because that is the best I can do to not miss this entire vacation. And all weekend I've been editing my house tour video, telling myself, you know what? Maybe I won't move. I don't think it gets better than this. This is really the dream. I'm so happy with it. I'm so in love with this space. I feel so myself. I get to do all the things I've ever dreamed of. And now I'm back and like, I don't know what to do. I don't know what to do with that motion. I don't know because this is not sustainable. I can't live like this and actually build the career of my dreams and get to where I want to go. It literally feels like I have to pick now. So if I care about my career, then I have to move to New York because this is happening every single week. I'm just basically flying there, not actually living and being present here. It's just taking a toll on my body. So I think at this point, the only thing that's left to do is procrastinate the move as long as possible because inevitably, we got to get this up, guys. And it's depressing.