I HATE HAVING S*X WITH MY HUSBAND

I avoided s*x with my husband and he ended up cheating on me. I would literally count the days in my head where three days kind of felt that kind of felt like too. Probably just go ahead and do it every single night. We would get there with anxiety because I would feel like he probably wanted it. But even throughout hated him, hated him touching me. Every kiss, every cuddle, every back rub, it would give me anxiety because I felt with an expectation. Suggested of those 30 day intimacy challenges and I cried. Bought those like spicy couples card and I literally had a full blown panic attack. I remember googling therapist to try and figure out why I felt this. I remember scheduling doctor's appointments when why my libido was so low. I genuinely thought something was wrong with me. I thought maybe hormones, maybe my drive was just broken. Those women who just did not enjoy intimacy. I remember even if I went my whole entire life never having intimacy, okay with it. Let me tell you something. She just didn't like him. She never liked him. Whatever mirage facade chameleon type activity that she put on actually getting married worked on him. He didn't. He never recognized the red flags. I don't know how he ever actually married this woman, but she never, never liked him from the beginning. He was always just probably a fall guy. And here's the flip side of it. Unless she tells us that she was a virgin married, that means that she's been giving or she's been participating sexually in some type of way with before him. But he was she wind up settling for and and that's just the truth. That's the way that it is. Unfortunately, sexless marriages, marriages with women that, you know, don't really like them. And I'm not this severe to where a woman is willing the internet is the the worst part about it. Somebody knows them as somebody knows her. Somebody probably knows, you know, her husband or her, I'm assuming. And internet dangerous part. All of this basically throwing him under the bus under the guys of trying to with people that will never ever know her, see her, show her any love in life. And instead she's going viral in my opinion, the wrong reasons while looking like the Wendy's chick. Um, that be on the commercials with the red hair. And it's it's dumb, it's stupid. Why people continue to make themselves look dumb by saying stuff that a bunch aligned with them. It probably will be if you comments didn't for this particular video. But if you comments, I'm pretty sure a bunch of that's inside of her comments. That's probably like, and I would never talk to men either again. To pick too. And all of because women don't hold women accountable, right? Women confirm other's biases. And the women that are willing another woman accountable, she's either leper. And just keep on scrolling. The ones that place because her life is probably a lot better.