@Lorna Luxe Content Creator & Founder

I DIDN'T HAVE ACCESS TO OUR BANK ACCOUNT WHEN HE PASSED... ALL I KNEW WAS THAT HE WANTED ME THERE WITH HIM TO THE END. I WISH WE TALKED ABOUT MORE FINANCES. I DIDN'T EVEN HAVE ACCESS TO OUR BANK ACCOUNT WHEN HE DIED. HE DID ALL OF OUR ADMIN, ALL THE DEALING WITH PEOPLE, ALL THE FINANCES. AND I THINK REALLY THIS YEAR, TO TAKE, I'VE NOTICED THERE'S THINGS THAT WEREN'T DONE CORRECTLY. MAYBE DECISIONS THAT SHOULDN'T HAVE BEEN MADE IN THE WAY THEY WERE BECAUSE I THINK WHERE HE HAD, AND THERE WAS, HE WAS IN CHEMO, VERY UNWELL. HE PROBABLY WASN'T MAKING THE SMARTEST DECISIONS. AND I'M KIND OF HAVING TO LIKE FIGURE THAT OUT FOR MYSELF NOW. I SHOULD HAVE TAKEN MORE RESPONSIBILITY OFF HIM SOONER. AND I'M, YOU KNOW, I DIDN'T, HE WAS ABOUT ME. IN FACT, THE DAYS BEFORE HE DIED, HE WAS PANICKED. HE WAS LIKE, "I'M REALLY WORRIED ABOUT YOU. I AM COPING. SO I AM PROOF THAT YOU KNOW, IF I CAN COPE, ANYONE CAN COPE." SINCE FEBRUARY, I'VE BEEN ON A BIT OF A CRASH COURSE OF LEARNING AND IT'S, OF CONFIDENCE. AND IT'S, DISTRACTED. I PROBABLY, AND I'M, EMPOWERED THAT I KNOW MY MONEY IS, I HAVEN'T GOT ANY. I KNOW WHERE AND IT IS A REALLY POSITION TO BE IN FOR ANYONE YOU'RE UP TO, TO FEEL FULLY ACROSS YOUR OWN FINANCES, OWN DECISION. THAT'S FLIPPING EXCITING. THIS MAKES ME FEEL LIKE I COULD DO ANYTHING.