IF MY FRIEND HADN'T CALLED ME

If my friend hadn't called me telling me that a brand new album from his favorite artist had just come out, to come over and listen to it with him, I would have been gone for 14 years. If you didn't know, September is National Suicide Prevention Awareness Month. I've struggled with through the majority of my life. The next time I hit that sort of low, I heard my dog whining from the other room and realized I hadn't fed him yet. The third time it happened, my daughter was asleep and I heard her stir, so I called the suicide prevention hotline. There is always a reason to stay, small, whether it's small, whether it's a child or a pet or a sunrise. Find a reason to stay and hang on to a bad season doesn't equal a bad life. If you're in me saying that, you probably wanna give me the middle finger. I get it. I've been there. If any of those I had been successful, I would not be experiencing what I'm experiencing now. Today I am running errands, it is 65 degrees outside. I have a yummy drink and a beignet of all things and I'm gonna go home and be with my daughter babies and get career that I never be possible for me. If you told me at 15 and 20 and 23 that I would be coming up on my 30th birthday and so excited for it, experiencing the life that I'm experiencing now, I would not things can get better. You just have to stay. Find a reason. It doesn't matter if it seems absolutely stupid to everybody else. Find one single reason to hang on and latch onto that. Tomorrow, find another reason. The next day, find another one. That day after day after day until you have a mountain of reasons to stay. Take it six inches at a time. You. You've got this. Sending you so much love and light.