i'll never understand people who create biracial kids & don't like them

i'll never understand people who create biracial kids & don't like them. i will never get over the fact that my mom decided to have a child with a fully black man and when i came out i was too black for her. and she literally was like return this one back to the sender and left me when i was five. and it's all because of my race and i didn't find this out until after she passed away so i never got to confront her on this. and now looking back it all makes sense and how she treated me and the things that she would say like she would always say like she would call me negro. and like that should have been a red flag girl. like i should have already knew but for some reason i thought my mommy loved me. and it just makes me sick because i have a daughter now and i can't imagine because my daughter is hispanic and she came out looking only really hispanic and i can't imagine just being like oh god she didn't she didn't look like what i wanted her to. that's just it's not going to work for me. like if i could go and talk to my mom i tell her she's a goddamn cunt. that's what i would say to her. so many people are always like oh like your mom loved you deep down like that's still your mom. no girl she wanted me back to the factory. she wanted me back to the sender.