Mindset shift to change your life

IN FACT, WHEN I SEE ANYBODY WHO CAN THROW INSULTS AROUND, I KNOW THAT THEY DIDN'T COME FROM MUCH. WATCHING THEMSELVES. BECAUSE YOU'LL BE ABLE TO EVEN TILL NOW, I JUST. I DON'T EVEN ENGAGE COMMENT SECTION AT ALL. YOU DON'T? BOTH POSITIVE AND NEGATIVE. I DON'T EVEN DMS. SO THERE WAS POSTED SOMETHING AND SOMEONE COMMENTED THAT, UM, CALLED ME A BASTARD. YOU'RE CORRECT. YOU'RE VERY CORRECT. I'VE. I'VE SEEN PEOPLE THAT ARE EVEN THEIR P.A. FOR THEM. YOU'RE VERY CORRECT. AND I'M WONDERING THAT. BE PROUD NOW. A LITTLE BIT. AND THEY'RE JUST THERE. YOU'RE VERY CORRECT. THE PEOPLE WHO WHAT YOU'RE DOING ARE NEVER. PEOPLE ARE ABOVE AHEAD OF YOU. IN FACT, THOSE WHO HAVE KNOWLEDGE WOULD RATHER PICK THE SIDE THAT IS MISSING IN THE ORGANIZATION. AND THEY WILL AND YOU DOWN BECAUSE THEY NEED YOU TO KEEP SPEAKING KEEP SEEING SIDES THAT THEY NEED TO WORK THE CULTURE OF JUST DISMISSING EVERYTHING THE PERSON IS SAYING AND INSULTING THE PERSON IS COMING FROM USUALLY SOMEONE THAT HAS EXPERIENCED ABANDONMENT. YEAH, I SUFFERED, I SUFFERED THAT. IT'S PSYCHOLOGICAL. YEAH. I DIDN'T KNOW HOW TO KEEP PEOPLE AROUND AND DOESN'T KNOW WHAT TO DO WHEN THINGS DON'T GO THEIR WAY. THEY FIND IT EASY TO WALK OUT. AND THEY THINK IT'S STRENGTH. YEAH. IT'S NOT. IT'S ALL ABOUT UPBRINGING? YEAH, IT IS. IT IS. I JUST GROWING UP AFTER THAT INCIDENCE KNOW THAT THAT SHAPED ME SO I COULD JUST WAKE UP AND NOT DECIDE THAT FOR THE NEXT MAYBE ONE WEEK TO TALK TO ANYBODY. I COULD JUST BLOCK ANYBODY. AND WAS ANXIETY. I, I DON'T KNOW, I DON'T KNOW HOW TO OLD. TO SAY, BUT ESPECIALLY WHEN NOW OLDER, I JUST WANT JUST WANT TO BE MUTED. AND IT TOOK ME TIME TO REALISE THAT YOU'LL SEE PEOPLE WHO ARE AS YOU NEED, BUT BECAUSE SOMETHING HAS DAMAGED YOUR OWN AUDACITY TO TALK, BE ANGRY AT THEM THAT I, BUT I'M SMARTER. THAT A WHOLE LOT. WOW. UNTIL I LEARNT THAT YOU CAN TALK. YOU CAN? I, I NEVER, I NEVER KNEW HOW TO HOLD, HOLD CONVERSATION WITH ELDERLY PEOPLE. BEFORE. REALLY? YEAH. I DIDN'T ONCE YOU. I'LL JUST PROSTRATE. I JUST. JUST LEAVE YOUR PRESENCE. YEAH. IN FACT, EVEN MY OWN FAMILY WILL TELL ME CAN'T LOOK AT SO I IT WAS A BIG STRUGGLE, BUT WAS A BIG STRUGGLE, SO ALSO BEATING DID SOME HAD PLAY IN THAT. I HAVE A POINT. I'M APPOINTED BEATING. SO IF I DO SOMETHING ON TUESDAY, MY BROTHER. COME ON SATURDAYS, ME. SO FROM TUESDAY, FOR IT. HA HA. AND THAT. THAT WAS DAMAGING SOME. SO I JUST. POINT I JUST. I JUST KNEW WHAT WAS THE THAT I'LL GET BEATEN? SO I'LL GO TO SCHOOL. TO SCHOOL, I'M THEM ARE EVEN FIRST TIME. I'LL LEAVE THE HOUSE, I WON'T GO TO SCHOOL. I'LL I WAS JUST TRYING TO I JUST DIDN'T CARE ANYMORE. MANY PEOPLE ALSO GOT INTO ALL THOSE THINGS. YEAH, AND NOBODY YEAH, AND NOBODY THAT. THIS IS NOT THIS CHILD. AS WO. YOU'VE AND THEY WILL AND NOT KNOWING IS ALREADY USED TO THIS GUY. HE'S NOT DOING BECOMING IMMUNE TO US. THE GUY IS ALREADY USED TO IT. SO A LOT OF THINGS. AND THE TRUTH IS, THE PARENT HAVE FEW YEARS TO LIVE. BUT YOU ARE DAMAGING THIS CHILD.