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I wanna be ho i wanna be honest and tell you th I've prob I've probably been going through mid life cr since since my daughter will be 12 will be 12 in September. will be 12 in September. I had a extremely had a extremely difficult time with her turning 10 and I felt and I felt like I couldn't even what she was like when We al We all say like time is a th time is a thief and yada, yada Yes, it's all Yes, it's all true However, I However, I was so distra However, I was so distracted by climbing a by climbing a corporate ladder, by having by having a career. And I used to by having a career. And I used to joke that I could never be a st because I because I would lose because I would lose my mind and not have the pa patience. And I look back on that very regretf very regretful. Feel like Feel like I missed out on a lot of stuff and it's too lat and it's too late to go back in time and it's too late to go back in time and rewind. It never even crossed my It never even crossed my mind when I wa It never even crossed my mind when I was working to find a way to not work. Like, it never came into my came into my mind, which is also very difficult to unde like how distracted like how distracted I was. And I know hindsight's 20 She's gonna be 12 She's gonna be 12, she She's gonna be 12, she's gonna be out of my house in six years. My son won't be My son won't be too far behind. I'm having I'm having to sit with that. I think about it all the tim I don't know where the time has go I know that I wasn't where I needed to be and I missed out. I don't even know what It's a lot of regret, bein being upset, With myself for Why would Why wouldn't you think that you shouldn't be at, spending time spending time with your children