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It is so weird being the sibling that "made it out" and looking at your other siblings like you can't tell like what went wrong. Like for me, my older sister when she was 21, she took her own life. And then my brother when he was 18, took someone else's life and got 25 to life for doing that. And then my other brother, when he was 18, took someone else's life and got 25 to life for doing that. And I don't know, I just... I don't know. I just feel like I got to where I wanted to get to. And now I'm just looking around and I'm like, I don't have my siblings with me. And it's such a weird feeling to go from growing up with people and seeing them so closely to them almost like no longer being around because like, even though my brother's still alive, it feels like in a way he's almost like gone because he's incarcerated. And he's like in the middle of the desert. Like he's like in the middle of the desert, like, it's hard to get to him and I just... I really can't bring myself to even do it. But I don't know. It's just such a weird experience. Like when you try to do better for yourself, like no one else follows.
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